The thought that I won’t be here much longer is the thought that makes things a little more bearable. I won’t be here much longer. I won’t have to suffer forever. Or maybe I will, cause Hell is real and I go to Hell for killing myself. That would suck.

I think I need a personal now, so here it is.

I am seriously considering committing suicide. I think about it every day now. What would be the best way to go? I’d never shoot myself in the head, I’m too pussy. I might be able to overdose on sleeping pills, would that really work though? I don’t want to end up having to have my stomach pumped and then id have the stigma of being a failed suicide attempt? But I guess if I was successful I’d have the stigma of being a suicide….. But I wouldn’t be here so what do I care?